There are just tooo many choices out there so much so that they are quite overwhelming and make me fell quite nauseous.Which university to go to?which course do i take? what to wear? how to act? what to be? do i stay or do i go?!? i don't bloody know THAT'S THE PROBLEM.
Maybe i'll just take the easy way out and become even more of an nobody, a pale faced robot endlessly walking about blank and empty; souless.
Maybe that's my destiny or maybe that's just me, i don't know neither do i care. All i know is that i don't want to be here any more, maybe i'll escape to a desert island where nobody else exists or become a hermit.I can't face the superficial stares the ticking clocks or uglyness of humanity, it's sickening and repulsive and i don't want to be a part of it any more. Maybe it is possible to go an alternate reality in my mind, if people who have an religious experience are experiencing some genuine real entity, then why can't i live in my mind because it would be hyperthetical real in some sense.I could be the god of my own existence in total control, creating everything and nothing letting my creation be.
or i could just be talking in nonsensical circles, i could just except my mundane pointless existence as a brute fact and wait for it to end, or i could take control and end it now. I wonder if there is such a thing as reincarntion, well there is only one way to find out.